Dear 2015.

Dear Twenty-Fifteen,

You were unlike any other year before you.

We had some good days. We had some bad days. We laughed. We cried. We ate too many pancakes.

JK. Too many pancakes doesn’t exist. It’s a myth.

Though I could easily write a novel about our adventures this year, I only have time for <350 words, so let’s show the highlight reel.

This year:

I trusted again. I got burned again. I trusted again after that.

I made hard decisions. I regretted some. I am proud of others.

I made dumb decisions out of temptation, ignorance, or just plain stupidity. I accept that I’m only human and sometimes eating a box of TimTam or sending that text/email is not the best of ideas.

I made mistakes. I forgave myself and others for prior wrongdoings.

I got healthy. I got unhealthy. I gained weight. I lost weight. I got healthy again.

I said yes when I should have said no. I said no when I should have said yes. I did what I thought was best every. single. time.

I fell in love. It was the wrong person. I let it go and didn’t stay for the sake of not being alone.

I got out of my comfort zone. I set up new healthy boundaries. Some things are flexible. Some are not.

I opened up more. I let people in. I locked some people out.

I did my best to not breed negativity. When I was witness to others engaging in negative talk about someone else, I didn’t contribute.

I made new friends. I strengthened old bonds. I surrounded myself with people who I respect and inspire me to always be better.

I stayed true to myself, with a few exceptions. But even when I wasn’t, I knew immediately that I had let myself down. I finally know myself that well.

I succeeded. I stayed humble.

I failed, learned, and failed better each time.

I continue to strive to be a person that I would want my daughter to look up to.

I didn’t just survive this year. I truly can say I lived this year.

I loved this year.

I lost this year.

I learned this year.

Most importantly, I have renewed my Faith this year. Faith in myself. Faith in a spiritual level. And Faith that the best days of my life are ahead of me.

2015, you were sometimes lovely, sometimes an asshole, and always worth it.

Thank you.

Love,

-k.